the hard step

i know it is the first step
that will lead me to freedom,
to better places, to peace.

why is it so hard?
what am i afraid of?
what is taking me so long?

time is coming

if i keep looking back,
i'll never see what's ahead of me.

let the healing start.
for good.

something about the water

the gentle crashing of little waves
the sight of sailboats in the distance
the smell of algae and salt
the never-ending train of thoughts.

being by the water calms me
but at the same time
makes me think
of things that could have been.

vertiginous fall

down, down, down i go....

again?

i thought i was only going up now.

ha! life throwing curveballs, huh?

come on, i can do it.

pull out again.

it was hard before,

but i did it.

it won't be harder now.

the same stairs that bring you down

will take you all the way up.

bye bye godmother

you may not have been a fairy,
but you certainly
made my life extraordinary.