i keep waiting

waiting for sanity
waiting for brevity
waiting for honesty
waiting for that window to finally open

still waiting....

i am still waiting
to walk down those steps,
through the little patch of grass,
and dip my feet in the refreshing water.

time has come

the view behind me
was tangled and closed.

clear water and skies ahead!

blue

i've been feeling blue.
waiting for things to happen
is never good.
i hope things happen soon,
whatever they are.
i need change.

the hard step

i know it is the first step
that will lead me to freedom,
to better places, to peace.

why is it so hard?
what am i afraid of?
what is taking me so long?

time is coming

if i keep looking back,
i'll never see what's ahead of me.

let the healing start.
for good.

something about the water

the gentle crashing of little waves
the sight of sailboats in the distance
the smell of algae and salt
the never-ending train of thoughts.

being by the water calms me
but at the same time
makes me think
of things that could have been.